like roses, we blossom.

What's called as a family without trust in it. Sometimes i feel that my parents just don't trust or i should rather say i know that they don't trust me. I don't know what the hell have i done to let them not trust me. I always listen and never had i been defiant.
Today they accused me of lying to them because they didn't believe i went out to study. Hello,you people were the one who forces me to study every single day every single hour so i've decided to go out to study today and yet you both accuse me of lying. When i don't study,i get scolding. when i study,i still get scolding from you both. What am i suppose to do in order for you both to stop accusing me? I say i study, you both talk sacarstic to me. It doesn't mean that i don't study usually doesn't mean that i can't study right? Doesn't mean that i have bad resultes i don't deserve to be trusted right? I don't see my sister getting that from them.
Another topic,
Today,i took the initative to go get dinner from grandma house for the family. It was quite a last minute thing as my mother only called me when i was already outside and everything was already planned. I was suppose to study till 6 or later,but then i had to go collect dinner. So i left promtply at 6 to my grandma place and the bus ride was freaking 45 minutes there.So i collected dinner and quickly cabbed home even i'm short of money because of the family's sake i don't want them to starve. As soon as i reached home, my father stared and me and started shouting " Do you even know the responsibility of collecting dinner for the family,you want us to starve to death is it. Why does it take so long for you to reach home" I was totally .... i don't know speechless maybe. totally flaring up inside of me. I could just rejected my mother and told her i dont want to take the dinner but no because i knew no one was free i just helped. But what did i get when i reached home? Not a single thank you, i got shouted once i stepped in the house.
You tell me,what am i suppose to do. fml