like roses, we blossom.

today i got to know that our n level papers only take 3 days to finish 5otc , 6otc and 8otc and tadaahh holidays starts. The worrying of my results would also begin then , the feeling would definately suck. it's like you're not having fun cause you have to worry about what results would i get thinking about if i would promote to sec 5 or go to ite. But then , thinking bout all the shopping and fun i get to have it might just help me stop thinking about it for a while. I always try to study but it will never be productive , i always get distracted by the littlest stuff infront of me. I can just play with my nails throughout the whole time. I try to read but nothing gets in my mind. This is bad , way way bad . I need to feel stress , i need to feel worried , i need to buck up. Well whats the point saying this , i say all this kind of stuff everyday but i'm not doing anything about it. C'mon fiona , i know you can do it . You're not dumb , you're just fucking lazy. Please try harder okay . Wow seems like i'm talking to myself haah , weird. Ciao